My Birthday

I wasn’t sure I was going to write about this, but few people read my blog, so I’m safe.

Today is my birthday. Now I know as you get older they aren’t suppose to mean the same thing. But to me they do. This is a day I love to celebrate and feel special. Ok so I like to feel special everyday…but on my birthday I like it to be a big deal. My Mom has always done this and I tried to carry on the tradition with my children.

Friday at work only a few people remember, not my bosses…sigh.. But hey they have their own life. We had a delicious cake that was made from scratch and it was to die for. Any way I’m sure that helped with my weight gain this week. I told Jeff I wanted to go out to dinner even though I don’t usually eat on Friday nights. I should have known better. Anyway I got off work early and treated myself to a new hair cut, and getting my ears pierced. This is a tradition I started when I was 29. I like to mark the 9^th birthdays as for some reason these seem harder for me. Then off to Bath & Body shop, I had a coupon and treated myself. All in all I had a pretty nice afternoon and evening.

So I wake up very early Saturday, having trouble sleeping and find this card on my computer from my husband… it was a joke card.. And well while funny, I was a bit disappointed in not finding the romantic cards he always buys me….. Needless to say I did find that one later.

Then off to WW, where yes I gained 2 lbs… that should have told me how my day was going to be. After coming home and having breakfast (Jeff made a wonderful one for me) we headed off to the Saturn place to get my car checked out… well Jeff hit a pot hole in the road and we got a flat tire. He pulled over to change it and we found out the spare was a mess….sigh…. so Jeremy came and picked us up and took us to the closest tire place.. They couldn’t repair the good tire, big hole in it.. So for my birthday I bought a new tired.. Then off again to the Saturn place… where I found out it is going to cost me $3000 to fix the car. Yes I did shed tears here.. I had hoped it would only be spark plugs…. Not really worth putting that kind of money into a 10 year old car…sigh.. I did get a wonderful call from my grandson, that really made my day.

Can you see how bad the day is getting.. Now I did spend some nice time with Jeremy and he was wonderful to help us out. My parents stopped over with a cake and Amber came over to enjoy it with us.

I ‘m not sure what I expected…. Calls from my sisters?? My brothers?? Maybe this day just doesn’t mean that much to them.. Maybe a birthday is just another day. So I did shed more tear this afternoon, feeling that my expectations are just too big. Just because I feel it’s a special day, doesn’t mean the whole world needs to….

Jeff took me out for a wonderful dinner and bought me a rocking chair I had asked for. He did try, he really did... I'm just a silly person that wanted a suprise.

So this year.. Will not be a birthday to remember. After this one.. I think I would rather stop celebrating all together. That way I won’t feel hurt when others don’t remember.